Wednesday, November 7, 2007

doubts.

"you read esperanza rising?"
"yeah."
"have you read esperanza falling?"

i started a list of all the books i have ever read.
its at 142. even though that sounds like a lot, i am disappointed that i cant remember more.
every hour or so one will pop into my head and i will run to my paper and scribble it down.
i dont understand how people dont read. it escapes me.

I have tried to stay in touch with people, but they don't make an effort.
so i am giving up, if they don't try and have a conversation with me then that sucks but that's it.
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'how are you'
'im good.'
'ok.'
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It's not that it's annoying, i guess it's just frustrating; because i try really hard to stay in touch. I call people, i comment them, i message them. but most of the time they just don't make an effort. and its been happening so much, and i wonder if its just because that's the way they are, or if it's because of the way I am; and that's why they don't try. maybe they don't want to stay in touch with me.

3 comments:

sydney said...

wow. i wish i remembered more of the books i read. i really got you thinking about it didn't i? haha

claudia [is mostly here] said...

thats the way people are, some people value different things

Anonymous said...

It happens alot
more often than any of us want to admit

I think its ok though
people move on
people change

and your right
people don't make the effort

I wish there was like a moral or lesson to this story. I'd make a crappy childrens novelist.

but your quite a neat girl Laura
don't blame yourself
(as a matter of fact your one of the neatest people I know)

P.S. Neat is such a great word, I need to use it super more often