enough

I feel so empty and gone and upset.
I wish life was different. I really do sometimes.
I want to get away from here and have a fresh start. Somewhere where I can finally breathe and feel the wind against me without feeling empty and concerned. I just want to be able to completely let go and feel free. I wish I could rewind to a month ago and fully appreciate every moment. That was a good month. It almost seemed like a moment and it flashed before me, and then it was gone. Maybe that's all it was. *just a moment*

I love Claudia so much and miss her even though she has barely been gone. she needs to come home. I don't know how I will deal with her going to college. It will be tough. I hate it when she is stressed from school and everything else because I feel so helpless. and when other people just add to her hurt and stress it gets me really upset.
please don't.
I don't know how I will deal with her going to college. It will be tough.
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